Betsy,
You don't have to be made of iron. You need to go easy on yourself. It's okay to cry about it. Let yourself be showered in my love and peace. Let the water from my side wash over you and cleanse you from the inside out. It's okay that you don't have it all together all the time, it's okay that you are scared and don't know how to react. That's all okay because you said yes anyway and that's all that matters!
~Daddy